Thundering morning wake-up. In my shower I thought someone might be moving in upstairs but instead it turns out the entire sky was moving in, on itself, around its own electricity, rattling my windows.

Busy morning with only one cup of coffee. Coffee works, it really does. I get amped up and type faster and think sharper. It’s a performance enhancer. Is that why people take drugs at parties? Does it enhance their “party performance”, making them more social, happier, sharper thinking, or funnier?

That’s why stand-up comics take so many drugs. Performance. The amount of cocaine deaths in the comedian’s world is pretty high. In NYC? Bankers and traders. Performance enhancers.

It’s a tricky area for humans right now. Statistics reveal that over half of all students at an Ivy League school are on prescription performance enhancers– for concentration, mood stabilization, etc. We’re all juiced up in one way or another. For me it’s coffee. But how different is that really from those other drugs.

What would I be like on extra testosterone? Or ecstasy? Or Ritalin? Would I be better than I am now, in some way? Should I experience what that is like?