Hi Monkies.<\/p>\n
In a bit of a strange headspace today. Combination of relationship things and bigger life things. I guess I feel a little down.<\/p>\n
I’m sad about the people I’ve hurt by not being what they needed. I hate the goodbyes, and it’s confusing to me that they always seem to come from me. I’m the one saying move on to the other person, and usually I say it’s for their sake, though it’s at least nearly equally for mine, somehow. I just have some unresolved things, I guess. Probably from way back, that cause certain problems in how I connect and relate to people.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so busy with my projects. It’s not fair to put someone else through that kind of frustration. No, I can’t spend the day at this or that, I have work to do. No, I can’t meet your friends for dinner tonight, I have to prepare for that thing tomorrow… and then I leave for that place for a week. Yes, I suppose it does mean you won’t even see me before I leave. I’m sorry, I know it’s annoying. There’s nothing I can do about it.<\/em><\/p>\n Is that really true? It seems to be true, but maybe this is one of those constructs we imprison ourselves with. How busy am I really? Is there a chance I’d rather just not spend that much time with anyone and thus create things to be busy on?<\/p>\n Who knows.<\/p>\n Tonight I’m here in NYC and I’ll be going to what should be an\u00a0incredible drone metal show<\/a>. The band Om<\/a>\u00a0is playing on the ruins of the\u00a0Egyptian\u00a0\u00a0Temple of Dendur<\/a>,\u00a0which has been on display in gallery 131 of the Metropolitan Museum of Art since the 1970’s. The temple, which dates from BC times, was constructed for the gods Isis and Osiris. It was given to the US by Egypt as a token of thanks for the US’s help in preserving other ancient Egyptian structures while the Egyptian government undertook some land engineering projects, like dam building and stuff like that. I’m not sure how “metal” it’ll be at this venue– obviously it’s a special performance. Also, in listening to some of their more recent stuff, it’s pretty clear they’ve diversified. Some of their tracks are just buddhist monks chanting with some subtle overtones from high powered guitars.<\/p>\n Looking forward to what they’ve put together for this.<\/p>\n Anyway, the show should be interesting. Om incorporates some of those other drone elements I was telling you guys about before– both high distortion, high-gain guitar, and also various drone vocals. I can’t wait to see if they’ll be able to get that super distortion going.<\/p>\n Not sure what’s up after that, but I’ll probably hang out there for the evening, depending on what’s happenin. I’ll be there with a couple friends.<\/p>\n Catch ya morrow.<\/p>\n (PS forgot pics again :\/)<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Hi Monkies. In a bit of a strange headspace today. Combination of relationship things and bigger life things. I guess I feel a little down. I’m sad about the people I’ve hurt by not being what they needed. I hate … Continue reading