{"id":447,"date":"2011-12-19T07:19:39","date_gmt":"2011-12-19T07:19:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.obsidiannoise.com\/blog\/?p=447"},"modified":"2011-12-26T18:20:00","modified_gmt":"2011-12-26T18:20:00","slug":"447","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.obsidiannoise.com\/blog\/2011\/12\/19\/447\/","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"
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Sunday Morning Brekkies<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

58 days since the injury. I wake up with less pain when I sleep on the floor than when I sleep on the bed or couch, but there are major drawbacks. For example, this morning I woke up with my head and torso completely under the bed, dust bunnies in my face, completely disoriented. And shivering. \u00a0I slid out and found my blanket and ground pad about a meter away. I’m stuffed up now, but I think it’s from sleeping with my head in a dust cave (rather than being too cold). I awoke eye-to-eye with my long lost headphones, which was great. They were eloping with my long lost USB key.<\/p>\n

I got to my feet feeling pretty well. Mornings from the bed are stiff and slow, mornings from the floor are quick and fluid, leaving me with few bedding options that require any deliberation.<\/p>\n

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I am, however, thinking of ditching my bed completely and going dojo style again. Maybe with tatami mats down, or a slightly raised sleeping platform.<\/p>\n

Tatami is comfortable but extremely hard. It’s also hygienic and easy to clean. The tatami panels can be replaced yearly. If I did it, I’d do the whole bedroom floor. No shoes allowed. Maybe no street clothes allowed in the entire room. That’d be a great policy depending on who’s invited over.<\/p>\n

As soon as I brushed up, and still shivering, I grabbed my hoody and did PT down on the water and froze my ass off. The sun wasn’t high enough to really coat me and I was blasted by ocean breezes coming off the Hudson. It went well, though. I finished with pull-ups and dips at the little jungle gym in front of a massive housing project between my place and the river. There was no one around, just me huffing out reps in an abandoned world. I’m feeling stronger, but by the last few reps I could feel the broken disc start to get hot, maybe getting too loose, and I stopped. Since I can’t hit the heavy bag or other people (under threat of punishment by the Ice Queen) I’m starting to do basic calisthenics and it really lifts the mood.<\/p>\n

I can do calisthenics indefinitely so it’s tough to stop or know when to stop. If I could I’d do them for hours, until I get to the state that completes me, the state of total depletion. When you have nothing left but pain and recovery, you know you can only crash and grow. That’s the greatest state of being. It’s all I ever want, and all I ever want to feel. Fuck everything else.<\/p>\n

The broken disc pain is highly localized now, but my left butt twitches occasionally, like a horse’s when a fly lands on it. I sure hope that doesn’t last.<\/p>\n

Tonight I was invited to a board meeting for my building and officially became a voting board member. The two old women who run the building fought each other all night long and I was frustrated. Both just went on and on, bickering about stupid shit. One wanted more recognition for her efforts to do stuff no one wants her to do. The other was an expert at getting a rise out of the other one.<\/p>\n

Afterwards, my neighbor (and board member) came over and asked if I wanted to debrief for a bit with her and her husband. I headed over and before I knew it the vodka was flowing and cigarettes were being sucked down. I barely touched either but the two of them got wasted. The conversation was excellent. \u00a0I stayed there for 4 hours and we talked. I had no idea my neighbor was so interesting and feel bad about not having gone over in previous days. Her husband is a special advisor to the UN on Afghanistan. He and I come from very similar academic backgrounds and the conversation was easy and pleasant, I could have stayed for hours. I sipped my drinks slowly and I’m pretty sure they didn’t notice they’d had 3 for every one of mine.<\/p>\n

Traveling next week for work and I can’t wait to get out of here. I’ll be 10 hours away by air. I’m so ready for adventure and distance between myself and everything. My broken disc will be a risky liability but the desperation to leave makes it more than worth it. <\/p>\n

New Noise<\/a> up– sometimes the Soundcloud embeds take a few seconds to appear so give it a chance if you’re up for it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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