Assume “The Position of Relief,” up on the elbows, leaning backwards, arching deeply, feeling the disc move away from the nerve root. Feel it move away from the nerve roooooot, awaaaaay.<\/p>\n
PT this afternoon was good but I felt a new sort of pain above the broken disc. It was sharper and very specifically located. It began when the Ice Queen started me on press-ups, the normal warm up for for the rest of the exercises. I just wasn’t very loose, couldn’t even lock my elbows out, and as I tried to unclench and get going, the new dig slowly began to manifest. It really limited what I could do today. I could tell IQ was concerned but didn’t want me to know. She said not to worry about it because it could be from muscle fatigue and not the disc, or some other temporary inflammation and not the disc, but I don’t know about that. I wonder if my frozen PT at the jungle gym yesterday was too much. Goddamn. Do a few sets of pull-ups and watch your discs explode their jelly all up against your nerve roots. What a great design.<\/p>\n
Cleaning service coming early tomorrow. She’s a referral from my neighbors. This is the second attempt to get the place straightened out a bit. The first was a disaster, a sham from Groupon. A cleaner showed up and quickly made it clear she’d never cleaned anything in her life. It was weird and uncomfortable and awful to have been there, unsure of what to do– to say aloud “hey, you’re not doing that right!” or to just do it all again afterwards myself. <\/p>\n
Or just do nothing at all, which is what I did. <\/p>\n
I’m not sure I’ll ever be OK having a cleaning service, it never felt right with me. But for right now I’m determined to do a pre-winter deep dive into the nooks and crannies especially since it’s never been done in this place. I just don’t know how. I’m hoping tomorrow’s session will be part\u00a0tutelage so I can get a handle on these things myself. But who knows, maybe cleaners don’t want you to know that stuff so you’ll depend on them. Like how a doctor sometimes won’t even describe what they’re doing as they do it, and how they make you go back in to get stitches removed instead of just showing you where to snip.<\/p>\n
It’d be easier to keep everything clean if I got rid of all of my furniture and went strictly utilitarian again. I miss those days, about two years ago, in this place. It makes for a strange setting in which to hang out with friends, but a great place to get stuff done. A small desk in the middle of a big, empty room. That’s the ideal for me when it comes to hard, solitary work, my favorite kind.<\/p>\n
Time to hit the floor. Tonight I’ve taped the ground pad down so I don’t have a repeat of the dust cave incident. The sleep audio tonight is Hibria<\/a>, Brazilian power metal. Their album Defying the Rules is hilarious and excellent. It’s a concept album telling a story about a dystopian future where a world government is destroying the last of the free people and a guy named Lord Steel and a helper named Ripper battle against the oppressive power to free mankind… mostly on their motorcycles and with bats and swords. <\/p>\n Fuck yeah!<\/p>\n I dare you to listen to this (below) until you reach the chorus, follow along with the lyrics below, and *not* be singing it to yourself for the rest of the day today. <\/p>\n I guarantee your day will be happier.<\/p>\n “He is the Steel Lord on Wheels!
\nUp coming stranger!
\nWith guts to make it
\nHe is the Steel Lord on Wheels!
\nDefying the power!
\nLord on Wheels
\nSteel Lord on Wheels!”<\/p><\/blockquote>\n