Day of Frig.

The trees here are all blooming, which looks and smells nice, though everyone is all drippy and doped up because plant cum.

What a weird relationship we have with plants.

The conference yesterday was great. I’ve already received some mails today asking for meetings. I like that sort of thing. I like meeting people to talk about something, especially one-on-one. For me, that is my socializing. It could be work-related, but it’s still my social time. I have good relationships with the people I work with, and clients who I work for. I get my social energy that way. Going out in a big group, I hate that shit. For me, that’s not socializing at all. That’s a miserable waste of energy. But I know for others it’s the opposite. I’m glad both kinds of people exist. I’m glad for the diversity we have. I’m also used to being in the minority in many ways.

Two days no training because no time and I can feel the energy overload creeping up. It makes me feel antsy and hard. A few days without training and I walk around dick-first like an asshole. A quick temper. Dangerous capabilities. I will get in there and get it done tonight, for my sake, and the sake of the whole city, is what if feels like. I need to fight things, or I fight everything.

Here’s the daily. Not another new blazer, but not that old. Maybe 2-3 years old. It’s nicely broken in now. For the longest time I thought it was so lame because it had this fake pocket on the inside. It looked like a pocket, but it was sewn shut.

Turns out you have to cut those thread to get it open. I felt like such an idiot when I learned that. But then the jacket became a favorite.

A) I’m clean and B) I’m going straight from a gallery opening to pound some leather at the MMA club for a couple hours. Then it’ll be home to restart work. I leave for Coronado tomorrow morning for a few days, and I’ll keep the updates going.

I want a woman who will
pull me from my own annihilation.
A fire hearted temptation from
the world who needs every drop of me,
touches every wound,
and dares me to be free.
She refuses to let me get too far away
Even when I disappear,
because she knows how
I starve for her.