Mondaeggerly

Hi squeakers,

Here at my workshop/lab/conference thing. I have a huge room overlooking Lake Michigan and it’s great.

The day was completely packed. We started at 7a and will end at 9p. Just taking a quick email break before we head out to dinner. I have some pics and stuff I’ll put up soon.

I love it so far, I’ve already learned TONS of things and it’s just been one day. One guy here has been working on a computer simulation of the conflict in Myanmar for 4 years, and his data is fantastic. I mean, fantastic… hand collected data, the way I like it in my models.

Have to run, just wanted to say hi.

 

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hi monkeys

I’m posting 7-days now. Except when I’m not, because things might happen that prevent it. But when there are no such things, I’ll be here. So don’t worry.

This morning I had brunch with friends from high school, the India school, down in Manhattan’s Meatpacking District. The place was called “Paradou“, and had some pretty intense menu action, definitely catering to the “morning after” crowd, (they played dance music at 11a, for instance) but not entirely. We sat outside in the back area, which was nice and cool. It wasn’t super crowded at 11a, and because we were a party of 13, that was nice. I think we had reservations. The pretty hostess lady’s skirt was too short for the size of her ass and all the waiters were handsome gay men.

I actually like a larger ass on a lady. I mean, not humongus but I like something there.

You know what I mean.

Holy.

I need to get out of this frame.

 

 

So that was that. My friend and I discussed it briefly.

“Hey, you see the hostess?”

“Yeah man, looks like she just came from a club.”

“She’s Russian but ethnically Colombian.”

“How the hell do you know that?”

“Been here a few times.”

And so he had been. He’s not really a “partier” (I loath the term) but does head out sometimes, especially now that he’s divorced.  I usually decline, but have had some fun a few times at his get-togethers.

Anyway, the menu was pretty good. It’s a $29 brunch with unlimited champagne. I didn’t go that way because today’s a training day, but I made of note of it for the future, especially for out of town visitors or something.

I had the duck ruben sandwich.

 

Daaaaaaang tasty.

It was great to catch up with people. One guy who came down with his wife, the last time I saw him was at my friend’s wedding a couple years ago. Really nice guy. He runs a “hair” business… as in, they collect, treat, and resell freakin’ human hair to people. Sound weird? It is. His stories are funny. He now owns stores on three continents, 36 locations in total, 4 right here in NYC. Nuts.

But ok.

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Tomorrow I’m off to Milwaukee for that lab I mentioned a couple days ago. I’ll be staying here for the week. I’m comp’ed completely, airfare and all, for the entire week, so that’ll be nice. The invitation actually included a +1, for a spouse or GF or something. That would have been interesting. I have no idea what a spouse or GF would do all day while we work on stuff, though. It’s a resort, but I mean, it’s Milwaukee. Maybe it’s amazing! OR maybe it’s… the way I kind of imagine it, which is the kind of place to maybe not take a “vacation” in with your lovely.

All of that is NA to me anyway. I just thought it was interesting that they gave me a +1 for the week.

Nowhere on the page can I find any information on training facilities, like gyms or anything.

If there is no training amenities (as seems to be the case), no big deal. I can find a tree for my pullups (1-armers all day baby), I can press the earth the fuck off of me for chest and shoulders. It’s on lake Michigan so I should be able to get my swimming in. I’ll swim an hour down the coast and run back. An hour of swimming is about 2 miles or so of water, so the run back is basically nothing.

This lab is going to be intense. I can’t wait. The 30 other participants are really heavy hitters in the field of conflict science, a mix of practitioners and scholars, mediators, negotiators, psychologists, computational modelers and mathematicians, coming together to try to solve some problems for the week. I was invited by the Director because of some ideas that have come up from my end over the years.  At least I think that’s why I was invited. I hope that’s why.

Saturnday is burning by, it’s 11:05p and I need to pack for an early morning flight outta here to freakin’ Wisconsin. Never been and can’t wait. I should probably shower and sleep soon.

Talk soon,

Duck

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The nice thing about Mr. Page’s “American Creed” is that it emphasizes all the right things about this place, the things worth celebrating. Its mentioning of “justice” and “humanity” is probably what’s missing most of all from our current form of government and the current power structure. So this creed, Page’s, is one I am comfortable taking.

Happy 4th, may it be sparkly, blasty and stuffed.

 

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Wodneig

 

Philly was fine for that quick day. Sudden big meeting at a big conference center connected to the Amtrack station there. I grabbed a pocket shot of what the scene was like while we got down to business:

It was all fine. We got much done. The atmosphere was a little funny. The suits and slightly clangy water containers and those weirdly non-food food items that always seem to be in great abundance as these sorts of things, very much despite the fact that no one really eats them. They sit on your plate after a bite, like mine does here.

Grabbed a bite with some other attendees and suddenly I was on the train back to NYC.

In the office in shorts and floppers today. Would you ever spend over $100 on flip flops? Is that insane? I need a replacement for my current pair as they’re a year old and for me and floppers that’s about the duration. I was in the giant REI down on Broadway-Lafayette and discovered a huge wall of flip-flop type things. I found a pair that I thought were absolutely perfect. They met all of my criteria– flat, leather, molded footbed, super high durability construction, they looked good. But then I discovered they were $11o. Holy.

I put them back.

I mean, let’s say they lasted three years. That’d mean they’re only $37…

You know?

I have a conference next week in Milwaukee and I’m looking forward to it, I think. It’s at a resort on the banks of Lake Michigan, 7th-12th. Could be very interesting. We’ll see. If it’s not, I’ll be able to get lots of swimming in, at least.

Dang it’s almost 11 and I have go so soon. I had more to tell you about. Will have to wait until demain. Or later today, we’ll see.

Until then, have a good everything,

Bye.

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aaaaaaand

I’m on my way to Philly for a thing. Update later.

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Monteq

Weak sleep, which is terrible because I’m sore as hell in the upper back, chest, shoulders and hamstrings. Will need to sleep extra long tonight and I can’t wait for it.

Off day. Meaning no training, not no work. I’m here in the non-secret office and it’s raining torrentially outside. Normally I like that. But today I’m a dark cloud. I hate my office environment and the chitchat of worker bees. I work in a private area away from them, but I hate it still. I was never intended for office work.

I remember when I was little I had already sworn off office work, without even having experienced what it entailed. I probably saw a movie or a TV show in which the character described why office life was so shitty, and I probably agreed with everything I heard. And now that I’ve experienced it fully in two different countries across 7-8 years or so, most of my preconceived notions have been confirmed. I’ve worked in the most formal of formal offices at a major multinational corporation, and here, which is probably among the least “formal”– despite pressure being quite high on a daily basis, depending on what your responsibilities are.

I’m in town for the week and then leave on Sunday for Milwaukee, my first time there. The lab is being held at a resort on the banks of Lake Michigan and I’m looking forward to it, I think. The world’s leading conflict scholars and practitioners are getting together to collaborate on bringing some of their projects to life. I’m happy I was invited. I hope they have a gym, but if not, there’s Lake Michigan and my 195lb body.

It’s tough to have a day off of training.

Have a great Moondelg and I’ll catch you tomorrow.

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Special Sundig Edition!

Beloveds,

How are you all. It’s Sunday June 30th, 2013 at around 2p. I’m at home with the windows and sliding door open, gentle breeze coming in from an overcast NYC day. I’m not sure if the sun is supposed to poke through at some point.

The breeze feels nice.

I have Boards of Canada’s album “The Campfire Headphase” on. By the time you get to that third track, Satellite Anthem Icarus, if you’re not in a peacefull daze you’re doing it wrong.

Damn, what a great sound those guys have always had.

I also have in my possession their 2013 studio album Tomorrow’s Harvest, which is actually just their 4th studio release in 27 years of existence, which I think is neat.

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So a little about the NSA stuff. I’ve been telling people how independent and off the radar that group had become for years. So now that someone had the balls to expose what’s really happening, why is everyone so surprised? Overall this is a very good thing for the world, but it’ll be rough for the US for a while, which is also good.

But what about love for the US?

Before anyone can answer that question for themselves, they have to begin by deciding what the US is.

For instance, there is no real US government anymore, and there is no constitutional democracy for sure. If you really want to know what kind of country we live in, it’s what’s called a Corporate State. Doesn’t sound too harmful.

The problem with the corporate state is that it’s not anchored to any underlying principles. The advantage corporate entities have over civilization is that, by their own account, there are no rules. It’s win at all costs, no matter what, and by “win”, they mean hoarding power, wealth and resources. Because it’s “win at all costs” now, the human costs don’t matter. So now that’s what we live in. The Corporate State doesn’t recognize principles like “democracy”, or abstract moral notions like “justice” or hell even basic ideas like “fairness”.  Again, it’s win at all costs. That’s why voting machines get rigged, elections stolen, and tactics in congress get seedier and increasingly insane. On this model, whatever the tactic, if it accomplishes the objective, it’s the right one.

So, while it’s a great time to be alive, it’s going to get very confusing and interesting very soon, like, this year.

You might ask what the big deal is about the US spying on the EU policymakers and political elites, because, after all, they’re our allies, it’s not like they pose any threat to us, so why would they care that much?  And that is true, they don’t pose a political threat to us. But remember, we no longer live in a constitutional republic. We’re a Corporate State. What that means is that all of that spying and intelligence gathering is always connected to and motivated by the hoarding, wealth-worshipping machinery of runaway capitalism. Because it’s “win at all costs”, and the goal is hoarding power, wealth and resources, then bugging a high level policymaker in Brussels might shed light on a huge new trade agreement taking place over there that the US is missing out on. Well that can’t happen, because “win”.  As the EU gets peaceful and rich, they win. But the Corporate State only exists to be the sole “winner”. So welcome if you didn’t know that’s how things were and are.

Hell, why not join in and work for a bank!

If you ever have trouble with this, just imagine the world that would be created if bankers or corporate operators ran it, based on their principles, and if that’s a world you’d want to live in. Have trouble imagining that? Well you shouldn’t. Just look through history… we’ve been there many, many, many times. The corporate operators consolidating insane amounts of wealth and power while everyone else goes about their business of solving society’s major problems, like food supply, medical advancement, science, education, etc. Throughout history as the greedy consolidate into dictatorial franchises, which is what always happens and still exists around the world today, eventually the human misery caused by this system becomes high enough that there’s always a revolution, and a war, and an overthrow, and then it begins again, ad infinitum. So, maybe we should just throw a stick in those spokes and try something new? Because we’re already back where we started for the thousandth freakin’ time, and the places who’ve exercised some wisdom and morality, like certain countries in the EU, are literally having the best times in human history, while in the US, among industrialized nations:

  • highest poverty rate, both generally and for children
  • greatest inequality of incomes
  • lowest government spending as a percentage of GDP on social programs for the disadvantaged
  • lowest average number of days for paid holiday, annual leaves, and maternity leaves
  • lowest score on the UN index of “material well-being of children”
  • worst score on the UN gender inequality index
  • lowest social mobility (which is the ability to rise out of poverty if you were born poor)
Not a pretty picture. Whereas the states doing the best in all of those things are in inherently non-corporate states, where human beings take priority over the insanity power and resource addiction.
What? Not that bad? OK, for kicks, here’s some more. Amongst industrialized nations we also have:
  • highest infant mortality rate
  • highest prevalence of mental health problems
  • highest obesity rate
  • highest consumption of anti-depressants (per capita)
  • third shortest life expectancy at birth
  • highest rate of failure to ratify international agreements
  • lowest spending on international development and humanitarian assistance as percentage of GDP
  • highest military spending as percentage of GDP
  • largest prison population per capita
  • highest homicide rate

(Source for all these, but there are many, many more: James Gustave Speth, “We’re Number One,” Yes Magazine, March 22, 2011)

You know what? This list just goes on. A huge swath of the population is convinced that things are great, while there’s literally misery all around them. How does one learn to ignore the real suffering taking place in their own country? States are good at creating illusions and complacency. China is great at it. As is Russia. Is it coincidence that those are our biggest threats? Not in the slightest.

There aren’t many positives. Oh here’s one: most amount of billionaires! Wahoo! Isn’t that great for the US?! We have 425 billionaires! Let’s celebrate the shit out of that!

Bottom line: the NSA thing isn’t about national security and it never really has been. It’s about the security of a few hoarders worried that they might have to sell off one of their jets. It’s about the security of a few groups of men with no loyalties who illegally control most of our resources, things we actually depend on for living freely. This *is* the loyalty system of the Corporate State, because at all costs precludes any and all other considerations.

The question I hope you’re asking yourselves now is: what happens when the rest of the world adopts our same “at all costs” form of tyrannical capitalism and all states becaome corporate states like ours?

Well, to a degree you can answer this already. China has done this explicitly, using our own attitudes and tactics for their “win at all costs” ideology. Now they’re not only destroying their own environment and lives, but everywhere they go, which is most continents, much like the US has done. And now they’re buying up our country, too, because these are the rules we’ve made up. One of the largest US food manufacturing companies is now Chinese. What’s next, our medicines? Too late for that, too. Is that what we want?

The problem is that want people want doesn’t matter. It’s how the corporate states will battle, and we’re all expendable. Our own government isn’t allowed to protect us because “the government is too big!” So the alternative is that The Market that will protect us. Because, you know, The Market really cares.

So, it’s going to get bad, which is good, in the long run. It’ll be interesting to see and experience how things turn out. Interesting times, monkeys.

See you tomorrow.

 

 

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Satig

Hi Monkeys,

It’s freakin’ hot and nice here in the city. I’m at a coffee shop on the LES with some articles I need to read. I’m doin’ pretty well considering I got home at 5am after the bday party last night.

NYC is the most dynamic city I’ve ever been to. There are aspects that I hate completely, and some things are just too incredible and cool to not marvel at. You can walk down the street at 3am and see massive buildings with all their lights on, and you think about all the hot water flowing out of showers and sinks, and then cold water, and all the toilets flushing and refilling, and you realize there’s a controlled superflood happening all around you and it’s amazing. And then the ground rumbles as a commuter train zips underneath you, and a light goes out as another one goes on, and cell phones are all on and off and information is flowing and circuits opening and closing and elevators bobbing up and down around you, and the foot traffic is intense, people walking like they’re on the fashion runway, girls with their tits out, barely able to stay on their heels, powerwalking douchebags whose dates didn’t put out, normal old men on the same route they’ve taken for years despite everything having changed completely. Normal people and total insane weirdos sitting next to each other, each in their zone, tuning into to their tech or their texts. It’s a chaos that never gets chaotic.

New Yorkers can be so alive. They’re out on the streets, they’re engaging, they’re trying stuff and learning stuff, mostly.

It’d be nice if a giant wall could be built between Manhattan and Williamsburg.

Incidentally, can we get these two to hook up? That’d be HOT.

Nah, you know what’d be hotter?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ah, yeah. That’d be real hawt, you duck brained baffoon.

<yawn>

Somehow Starkweather is playing tonight. There was a time when I had this band on repeat. It’s dark metalcore. The vocals wear you out, but if you’re in the mood for intensity and exhaustion, Rennie Resmini is hard to beat. I really like the mixed of guttural screaming vocals and his sort of weird calming vocals that always somehow sounded so tortured. He starts this song with the calm stuff and it gets twisted as the track progresses. Lyrics below. Love the reference at the very end.

I’m pretty sure Rennie is crazy, but his vocals are genuinely his, and I like it.

Heed warning.
Take leave of this place.
Force the break.
You’ve made it this way.
Suffer this you’ve earned it.

Spring-loaded shadow hovering over your shoulder.
Come crashing through the door.
Measure despair in fears.
Gather yourself off the floor.
Suffer this you’ve earned it.

Pretty on the outside
I know that you have become
broken from inside
I know what you have become.

Mottled in bruises and scrapes.
Bed of nails where you lay
pretty on the outside.
I hope that serves you well.

Mother
Echidna
lays with animals
who rip her flesh,
break her bones.

Listen to the part at 7:07, if you can. Rennie is doing is screamy thing for a couple measures, but the rest of the band comes in on vocals, very quietly at first, repeating the “Mother Echidna” part of the chorus (from Greek mythology, Echidna (Ancient Greek: Ἔχιδνα, “she viper”) was half woman half snake, known as the “Mother of All Monsters” because most of the monsters in Greek myths were mothered by her), until it’s just them repeating that last stanza. The way they do it is so awesome and eerie. Go to 7:07 and listen for just two minutes, it’s great.

I’m actually surprised they’re playing. They formed in 1992 and have been off my radar for about 5 years maybe. $8 at the door. We’ll see. As you can see from the link above, it’s a full show, I think 5 bands total, so not sure when to show up.

Better get back to work. See you tomorrow, beloveds.

Bye.

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Holy, It’s Frig Alreadig

Going to a birthday that will involve a couple places I loath tonight. Anyone else but this guy and I wouldn’t go. Here’s what this generally ends up being like for me:

That’s right. Tha club can’t even handle me right now.

It’s been a strange couple of days of late work and little free time. I’ve been taking runs at 4am. Turns out I’m faster than a motherfucker at that hour, 6 miles in 40:11. So that’s nice. All other systems go.

Well, except for one, I guess.  I need a no strings attached kind of thing right now because of everything I’m up to. Not being around often makes it tough for anything else, and especially if you’re just getting know someone. I don’t want to wreck any female friendships I have, either. So I’m just burdened. BURDENED I say!

Off for the while. I’ll update over the weekend to make up for my missed days this week. Sorry about that. Also, I should have some good stories to share from whatever happens tonight.

Be well all my friends, bite down and go hard and do great things.

Later.

 

 

 

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Still asleep.

I needed more than expected. It’s afternoon, now. Have been out for 12 hours. Sometimes after a sleep this long, I get a supercharge. I spring forth into our world with a hard dick and a clenched fist.

Other times, my fist isn’t as clenched.

Going back to sleep.

Have a great day.

 

 

 

 

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